Assignment: Catching stabs. Willing to take it? Welcome betrayal. Don’t protect the ego. What would happen if you came out of your movie?

Church with Jesse Lee Peterson, Sunday, May 18, 2025 

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TIMESTAMPS 

• (0:00:00) Pre-service small talk 
• (0:01:49) Women’s Forum 
• (0:03:44) Happy b-day, Anchor Baby 
• (0:05:46) Assignment: Write down how many stabs 
• (0:24:32) “I still get pretty mad.” Catch thoughts… 
• (0:33:06) “Good stabs.” Faith? 
• (0:41:45) Willing to take it 
• (0:53:33) Children, dominating woman, passive man 
• (1:02:43) Welcome betrayal. 
• (1:11:13) The signs are always there, but you miss them. 
• (1:22:21) JLP: Stupid stuff… Catching stabs… 
• (1:32:54) BQ: What would happen if you came out of your movie? 
• (1:43:19) Anxious man, not comfortable around others 
• (1:54:31) Was this helpful? Temptation. Closing: The real you… 
• (1:58:40) New BQ: Anger or understanding, which do you prefer?

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CHURCH NOTES 5/18/25  

📖 Prior Biblical Question: What would happen if you came out of your movie?  

📝 Prior Assignment: Write down all the times you get stabbed throughout the week. 

📖 New Biblical Question: Which do you prefer, anger or understanding? You cannot have both. 

1 Welcome / Stay with it, ladies 

(0:00:00) Start (0:01:22) Intro (0:01:49) Stay with it, ladies 

2 Happy b-day, Anchor Baby 

(0:03:44) Anchor Baby … Happy b-day! How do you get that energy? “Stop being so hateful.” 

3 Assignment: Write down the number of times you’ve been stabbed  

(0:05:46) Assignment: Colin didn’t do it. He noticed, but didn’t write ‘em down. What a loser. (0:06:58) I love church. 

(0:07:10) Vanessa… Why do I feel like I’m an exception to the rule? (0:13:28) Being alone. (0:14:41) Ryan wasn’t here. The other week’s Assignment was the best, he says. 

(0:15:08) Raymond recorded it in his mind. (0:15:52) Colin says it’s powerful to call them stabs. Assignments: To try to get you to pay attention to what’s going on in you. 

(0:16:52) Randy’s wife was sick. (0:17:49) Asian guy didn’t keep count, estimate in the hundreds. Complaining. (0:18:49) You’ll realize you talk too much. Fear makes you talk, says the Asian (Andrew?). (0:19:53) Doug (0:21:43) JLP: You can’t imagine the depths how unconscious/blind you are. (0:22:02) Alexis: Anytime I’m inconvenienced, I feel like I am all the time. (0:22:52) JLP: There are other things you’ll find out you don’t even know about yourself. Nick was writing ‘em down. Regrets, anxiety… (0:23:55) Franky: Million 

“I still get pretty mad” …. Faith? 

(0:24:32) Young woman didn’t write ‘em down, but… She complains a lot. Calling people names. The sin is in the mind. That’s not right, Jackie (sp), she’d tell herself. “Chill out.” Surprised to find all this hell? I don’t believe it should be completely gone? (0:26:17) I feel like it’s a transition. I still get pretty mad. One reason: You’re not catching it. Assignment is so you can catch the thought. Realizing you had a thought after you feel the pain is not catching the thought. 

(0:28:32) Her mother didn’t write ‘em down. Neither did Jesse! Maybe 50-60, she said. Work home alone. Irritating myself. Don’t like being inconvenienced. I complain in my head. (0:29:53) Lot of nightmares… 

(0:31:55) Man didn’t tally them. Drained at end of day. Reacting emotionally. 

“Good stabs”… Faith? 

(0:33:06) Hake… (0:34:41) good stabs … Hake says he throws up his hands and doesn’t have the faith. (0:36:38) Who has the faith to do it? 

(0:39:49) Randy: Didn’t do it. Forgot. When I’m not stabbed, I feel nothing. 

4 Willing to suffer 

(0:41:45) Colin: Isn’t willingness to withstand ego pain — isn’t that faith? JLP: God told us to come… with no faith … You get to know Him. Easier to distract yourself with computer/phone… You only are made strong when you’re weak. (0:44:42) They’re not willing. It’s just a saying. … Not willing to go through it. (0:46:30) Take it. Go through hell. Going through fear, it disappears. (0:46:58) Fear is such an illusion. No such thing as fear, depression… It feels so real, b/c you’re identified with it. It’s not real! 

(0:48:49) Why aren’t you ready? … Why not be weak, and don’t go for it? Let yourself be weak, and don’t do it. (0:50:39) Endure the temptation. Go through the valley of the shadow of death. No matter what. It’s not even you going through anything. At all. False you. Your ego, your false self. The lie. Go through it in your weakness. God knows you’re weak. Go through it as you are. 

(0:51:53) I don’t wanna force myself to throw it away. Take some of the pain of not smoking. Sometimes just don’t do it. Stay conscious having that cigarette. It won’t have the same effect. 

5 Children… Dominating woman, passive man. 

(0:53:33) RANDY: Are we built weak? … JLP… The real you is strong. You identified with your father the Devil’s nature, nothing but weakness. … Something in me can’t stand the children being happy. (0:58:01) JLP: A dominating woman and a passive man living together is an abomination. … Don’t owe her any explanation. Are you afraid of losing her? His father was passive. (1:00:23) Christina is waiting for him to tell her how the cow ate the cabbage? 

(1:01:37) Man yells at his daughter a little bit. 

6 Welcome betrayal… The signs are always there, but you miss them 

(1:02:21) … (1:02:43) Ryan on embracing betrayal, or not reacting to it. It happened to him this week. He tends to confront. Trying not to give him the silent treatment. Totally woman. (1:06:12) Without being too obvious… How do I play this? 

(1:07:09) Doug done wrong by coworker, and it changed the relationship … 

(1:09:54) Ryan: Are you mad? I don’t wanna be like, I don’t wanna talk to you anymore. (1:11:13) JLP: The signs are always there, but you miss them. (1:11:58) Like a honeymoon. You make excuses, and miss the signs. You’re describing my life story right now. 

(1:13:14) JLP: So, know thyself first, and know he can’t see. Real compassion, not judging him. You stay in the light. You’ll be fine. He knew exactly what he was doing. But still, he couldn’t see. If you can see, you don’t hurt people. The person playing a game is blind. Only blind people play a game. My fault, no excuse being this naive. Don’t even blame yourself. Be glad you can see it now. 

(1:17:31) … JLP: The betrayed thinks he’s better than the betrayer. But he’s no better. 

(1:18:24) … “When will this all end?” If God allowed you to see what you have to go through, you’d die. He’s only giving you what you can handle. 

(1:19:14) Franky: Keep things business, not too friendly, not too happy, not too into it. (1:19:59) JLP: You want to be as free at work as you are at home. Ready for whatever situation comes. Don’t want to protect yourself from ego danger. Let ego pain happen to you. Don’t protect the ego. 

(1:21:19) Betrayal doesn’t really exist: Coldburger. … 

7 JLP: Stupid stuff… Counting stabs… 

(1:22:21) Stupid stuff happening. 1: In marriage, dating, if any pain… don’t be mad at the other person. You’re the one who made the person your god. And they made you their god. That’s why you’re fighting, and can’t let go. Buying stuff, paying bills, thinking that’ll make the marriage work: It won’t. (1:23:25) 2: Don’t marry a woman with children! It doesn’t work! You don’t love her children! Pay attention! Allow God to put you in the right place. Seek the truth first. And let all be added. Don’t be ambitious. Want for nothing. 

(1:24:48) Children won’t make you happy. “I’ll do better than my parents.” Lied to in your imagination. The world is evil. 

(1:25:12) Re: Count the stabs. JLP stabbed 455T… so many times. You’re just not catching it. … “Good stabs” 

(1:27:59) Have you noticed? Stuff I wrote down. Human beings are evil! 

(1:29:08) JLP: Have you noticed self-righteousness LOVES to be shocked at the hypocritical behavior of others! The hypocrisy of others. 

(1:31:00) Homeless people sitting around … with their hand out. Addicted to the handout. And people giving money addicted to feeling good about it. 

BQ: What would happen if you came out of your movie? 

(1:32:54) The Biblical Question … Rochelle… Andrew… Y (1:34:08) You love your movie that’s why you won’t leave it. “Main character syndrome,” says Andrew. 

8 Overcoming false emotions 

(1:34:34) Stephanie from Montreal, first-timer … challenging not to put thought/emotion into things. Watch what happens in the thoughts about giving/receiving flowers. Let them pass. There’s another natural emotion that’s not emotional. And it’s perfect. When you die from the false emotions… (1:37:57) How does it feel to be the 51st State? Welcome to America 

 Closing: Everything is finished. 

(1:38:20) JLP: The world hates good, hates God. The world is evil. Know God when you confess your sin. Anger is evil. Everything is finished. You’re free, but you keep calling it you. … Taught wrong. 

(1:41:12) From Canada: Doing the silent prayer? Morning and night? Not every day. Forgave? 

(1:42:36) First-timer Skyler forgave… Praying. 

9 Anxious man, not comfortable around others 

(1:43:19) Anonymous first-timer from here in L.A. keeps to himself, not comfortable around other people… Doesn’t believe in God, doesn’t trust himself. (1:51:01) An atheist? … Do you create your own thoughts? Deep, don’t know how to answer that. … When you have fear, where does that come from? (1:52:32) Where does the loneliness come from? (1:53:53) Come up here. No, thanks. 

(1:54:31) Was this helpful? Colin… Don’t run to temptation. Avoid it. Be aware even in doing it though. Stabbing thing… (1:55:52) Stay with it. … Drop your morals… you’ll live. 

(1:58:40) New BQ… 📖 New Biblical Question: Which do you prefer, anger or understanding? You cannot have both. 

REMINDERS… 

• 2025 theme/assignment: Practice being present. 
• 2024 theme: Want for nothing. 
• 2024 assignment: Don’t let the thoughts bully you. 
• 10/13/24 Daily Assignment: 24hrs: Don’t judge with words, looks, emotions, or thoughts. 
• 8/25/24 Assignment: For one week, let the only evil you think of be your own. 
• 8/25/24 try this: Never argue — with anyone. 
• 9/1/24 Assignment: Completely surrender to thoughts. Feel it. Take the pain. 
• 9/1/24 Assignment for Southern gal: For one week, don’t argue with anyone. 
• 9-8-24 and 9-15-24 assignment: Don’t trust the thought. Let it overwhelm you. 
• March 10-17, 2024 assignment: Get rid of your heroes. Trust no one. 
• May 19-26, 2024 assignment: If you feel anything, remember: It’s just a thought! No meaning. 
• Jun 2-9, 2024 assignment/discussion: Watch the different demons inside you. 
• Assignment from JLP show (Thu 6/20/24) Practice staying present. 
• Late 2023 assignment: Notice the mind repeats itself, and that it’s all about self. 
• Late 2023 assignment: Sit four minutes in your room in silence. 

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