The world will only get worse! You can’t prevent suffering! No such thing as forgiving yourself! Quietly live with the hell in you.

Church with Jesse Lee Peterson, Sunday, May 25, 2025 

Memorial Day is Monday. We will be live on the radio shows, but the BOND office will be closed. 🙏 

||  See clips, links, and notes below. 

TIMESTAMPS 

• (0:00:00) Pre-service small talk; Welcome; Memorial Day 
• (0:02:10) Needing to recalibrate: Anxiety. Forgive. 
• (0:12:15) JLP: It will only get worse: even Mexicans! No expectations. 
• (0:20:56) How you know. Forgiveness. Christ.  
• (0:30:48) Man: Stopping others’ suffering; Knowledge vs understanding. 
• (0:51:05) Man: Forgiven mother? Silent Prayer. 
• (1:05:16) Family members using you! Then they turn on you! 
• (1:08:19) Do we forgive? 
• (1:10:56) Apologize for judging yourself? 
• (1:30:19) JLP: No such thing as forgiving yourself. Ego trip! No self. 
• (1:34:21) JLP: Gym, Parking Lots, Cellphones 
• (1:36:33) JLP: What it’s not like… 
• (1:57:05) Story, Assignment, Closing

CLIPS 

It’s only going to get worse (18-min) YouTube | Rumble

You can’t help your family (37-min) YouTube | Rumble

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CHURCH NOTES 5/25/25 

📖 Biblical Question: Which do you prefer, anger or understanding? You cannot have both.

Last year’s Biblical Question: Do you have hope? 

Monday is Memorial Day. We’ll be live on-air, but the BOND office will be closed. 🙏 

Welcome. Memorial Day. 

(0:00:00) Start (0:01:32) Welcome 

1 Needing to recalibrate… 

(0:02:10) Man speaks on Memorial Day… (0:02:51) How he’s doing 

(0:05:22) Can you relate to him? A lady also has anxiety and negative thoughts. Working on yourself? 

(0:06:49) Can you relate? Man next to her used to be like that. (0:07:47) This your wife? How do you deal with the hell in her, when it comes out? Mark and Leslie (sp) 

(0:08:34) Do you know you have hell in you? Do you know you dump it on your husband? What’s it feel like… “Not on purpose” — accidentally? … Forgiven your mother? No. Your husband told her to. (0:11:24) You havin’ fun right now? “No!” You feel shy? Yes. Come up here! That way you’ll feel better. No. 

2 Only gonna get worse 

(0:12:15) Things are only gonna get worse. If you’re not ready, you’re not gonna make it. 

(0:13:01) Even the Mexicans are getting worse. They used to be nice, really good work, could rely on them. Now they give you attitude! Lazy. Don’t do what they say. JLP story on a service he paid extra for… 

(0:18:01) If you’re not prepared, they’ll get to you. Do not expect the world to get better, or that they’ll treat you well. Have no expectation of how someone should treat you. … And then you won’t be bothered. Let go of all your ways of how you should be treated. Women have that bad. Especially black women! 

(0:20:00) This one black woman in the public eye… Even your wife, don’t expect your wife to treat you well. Same thing with your husband. 

2B How we know it’ll get worse… Forgiveness… Jesus 

(0:20:56) Man asks: No expectations of it getting better or worse…? How do we know it’ll get worse?  JLP on the govt telling the blacks lies… Forgiveness: Apologizing for hating (0:24:51) … JLP: Human beings cannot forgive each other. Admitting your sin of judgment … (0:27:10) … JLP: Overcoming the hell in you. 

(0:27:55) Man asks Q: Believe in what Christ said… the message he brought. But instead, they make him a God. He’s the Son of God. (0:29:07) Most won’t accept he’s the Son. … Man: Now it’s effortless 

3 Man: Stopping others’ suffering; Knowledge vs Understanding 

(0:30:48) Another man has expectations on people associated with him as their brother: Enrique’s brother. (0:32:29) But that’s about you! He wants to help them avoid unneeded suffering. You’re not God. God lets everybody suffer who wants to. God and Jesus having cafe mocha and pecan muffin… (0:34:14) JLP: Human beings love their suffering, pain, false fears… If you get in the way, they’ll judge you! You’re not God! You can’t even stop your own suffering! “To me it’s education — I try to educate my siblings.” 

(0:36:57) … JLP: People hold onto knowledge, but have no understanding… 

(0:38:32) Does it bother you when people treat you a certain way? This other man: I hold myself with respect… Not let people violate my boundaries… (0:39:46) Who are you that you care about yourself? A child of God? … 

Trying to set a standard in his family… Family is taking advantage of you. 28yo. Let it go. Do what you want. 

(0:46:04) Advice? A third man, with a white girlfriend: He’s gonna continue in his hell. His girlfriend doesn’t listen. 

(0:47:34) Colin to “Jose” (really Enrique, I believe): You’re just gonna get crazier, falling deeper into hell… (He’s a first-timer, brought by a friend.) Alexis: Taking others’ burdens, can’t help them. Only thing to do is worry about yourself. 

(0:49:02) The man in question agrees. (0:49:30) His friend who brought him… 

3B Man: Forgiven mama? Silent Prayer. 

(0:51:05) The man Enrique says he forgave his mother by telling her he loved her, realizing she had it worse than he did. What did he say? JLP: You don’t love her until you forgive her. And then God’s love will come. You just like your mama! Did you know? 

(0:55:18) … JLP: When your mama says, “I did all I can for you, Pepe!” (0:55:45) Did your father help you? (0:57:21) People don’t need to apologize for you to forgive them. (1:00:25) Do the Silent Prayer… Raised Catholic. … JLP on overcoming the wilderness of thoughts and returning like the Prodigal Son to the Father. (1:04:30) God is a dispassionate God. Satan is a passionate god. If a woman tells you… 

3C Suffering to learn: Family using you! 

(1:05:16) She relates to him trying to help brothers, sisters, family — JLP advises: Everybody’s doing the same thing. 

(1:05:42) She wanted to be financially stable to help people. … Have to suffer to learn, but you’re stopping people learning by stopping their suffering. 

(1:06:51) JLP: Their family members are using them! 

4 Forgiveness? Judging yourself? 

(1:08:19) Daniel or I forget his name… Why did Jesus say go and forgive? If human beings don’t forgive? Do we say we forgive? Or do we say we’re wrong? 

(1:10:56) If you judge yourself, how do you apologize to yourself? Lady judges herself. Are you working on yourself? I would like to say so. but what’s the truth? (1:12:18) More answers… (1:12:47) The first man today: Do you judge yourself? Do you apologize to yourself? (1:14:27) Lily fighting with others’ voices in her head. (1:16:00) How do I stop? Tell you in a minute. Raymond… 

(1:17:08) Mother: Do you judge yourself? How do you forgive yourself? (1:19:06) Another Asian man: You realize it’s not yourself judging yourself. (1:19:30) How do you forgive yourself? (1:20:08) Still another man (1:20:54) Daniel (I think) 

(1:21:43) Doug answers… (1:23:21) Franky (1:24:02) Mateus (sp) (1:25:00) Hake (1:26:04) Derrick … 

(1:27:40) Vanessa (1:28:25) Do you still give your husband problems? It’s difficult. Perception: I perceive not to do it, look at warning signs… Why not back off? Look at him. Leave him alone! 

5 JLP: No such thing as forgiving yourself. 

(1:30:19) If anyone thinks you can forgive yourself, you’re on an ego trip. There’s no such thing as forgiving yourself. Because there is no self. 

Living an illusionary life, it’s all fake! (1:33:24) Like marrying a man in a dress! There is no you to feel any of these things! It’s an illusion. 

5B Gonna get worse: Gym, Parking Lots

(1:34:21) JLP: At the gym, people sit on the machines on their cellphones! They get mad if you want in! Fighting at the gym! Used to be fun! People used to work together! People sit on their cellphone! … Or People get back in their car in the parking lot and just get on their phone, sitting in the car, in the parking lot! It’s gonna get worse! 

5C Things it’s not like 

(1:36:33) Ideas, what this journey is not like…. Religion, “accepting Jesus” … (1:38:00) it’s not becoming anything. If you’re becoming something, you’re not on the straight and narrow. It’s not about becoming anything. (1:38:29) It’s not about learning. In this journey, you don’t learn. All you’re doing is gathering knowledge, and you repeat that knowledge. Let knowledge go, and wisdom will come. 

(1:39:48) Overcoming your morality. No one can live up to it! People try, and the worse they get! Moral, self-righteous people judge the righteous people who make a mistake! (1:40:56) Your relationship with God is nonverbal, a knowing, without words. You’ll stop talking to Him with words. You’ll be one with the Father. Adam knew God, his Father. 

STOP OWNERSHIP: Marriage… (1:43:37) Ownership. Or “Friendship.” Expecting something from your friend. Don’t own anything! (Other than some land, unless you have to sell it!) Christianity is about ownership. Who’s gonna waste their time at a rally because someone said something bad. Or when you’re dating. “That’s my boyfriend.” 

(1:45:38) Overcoming the world, not identifying with the world anymore. Do what you want: Let yourself suffer. Feel pain, loneliness, fear, doubt, worry, loss… Live with it so you can die from it. Will feel horrible! The only death: The ego, the false self. 

Who doesn’t understand? 

(1:48:04) Who does not understand this? One of the men… Not quite reaching it. Not ready. Why think you are? When you feel weak, be weak. I did it but didn’t follow through with it. (1:49:55) JLP: When I realized I needed to forgive my mother, I had fear, could barely walk. … (1:51:11) Walked away from it so many times. Stop walking away. Pills won’t help. … It’s very simple. 

(1:52:38) It’ll be fun. The more you do it, the more hell you want. The greater the pain, the easier it is to die. You want to be overloaded with grief. Then you’re free from it. Almost have to create your own inner conflict — meaning you don’t run from it. (Don’t misread that.) It’s not happening to you, but to a false you. The real you isn’t feeling it at all. It’s happening to the ego when you feel it. [The temptation to be defensive.] 

(1:55:17) Mother: Heaviness over me. 

Story, Assignment, Closing 

(1:57:05) JLP Story of asking a female family member if she thinks she’s good. 

(2:00:04) Pay attention to the stabs… This week: (2:00:59) Quietly live with the hell in you. Your wife says something stupid, live with it. Live with evil, the emotions, so you can die from it. Be quiet about it. So you can overcome it. ASSIGNMENT: Quietly live with the hell in you. (2:02:26) *scratch* … It was your ego, not you. 

(2:03:16) Asking the young lady — she doesn’t want to talk. (2:04:02) BQ — Some people prefer anger! Jesus never had human anger, it’s of the devil. *scratch* again. 

REMINDERS… 

• 2025 theme/assignment: Practice being present. 
• 2024 theme: Want for nothing. 
• 2024 assignment: Don’t let the thoughts bully you. 
• 10/13/24 Daily Assignment: 24hrs: Don’t judge with words, looks, emotions, or thoughts. 
• 8/25/24 Assignment: For one week, let the only evil you think of be your own. 
• 8/25/24 try this: Never argue — with anyone. 
• 9/1/24 Assignment: Completely surrender to thoughts. Feel it. Take the pain. 
• 9/1/24 Assignment for Southern gal: For one week, don’t argue with anyone. 
• 9-8-24 and 9-15-24 assignment: Don’t trust the thought. Let it overwhelm you. 
• March 10-17, 2024 assignment: Get rid of your heroes. Trust no one. 
• May 19-26, 2024 assignment: If you feel anything, remember: It’s just a thought! No meaning. 
• Jun 2-9, 2024 assignment/discussion: Watch the different demons inside you. 
• Assignment from JLP show (Thu 6/20/24) Practice staying present. 
• Late 2023 assignment: Notice the mind repeats itself, and that it’s all about self. 
• Late 2023 assignment: Sit four minutes in your room in silence. 

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